Less than two years ago I thought I was a big shot.
I saw a tweet that I didn’t like, and I got on my keyboard and fired off this tweet.
Good morning to everyone except @BrianZahnd.
— Logan Dixon (@ReformingLogan) December 20, 2017
What was I thinking? I was probably thinking I would get some ‘likes’ from some cool Reformed dudes on Twitter. Maybe I was thinking that I might get some ‘follows’ from some young, restless, and reformed guys. I don’t remember exactly what I was thinking, I just know one thing for sure. I was a jerk.
So, what was it that I didn’t like? This.
The newness that Jesus brings is not the forgiveness of sins. The Old Testament is full of forgiveness. John the Baptist offered forgiveness in his baptism. The newness that Jesus brings is the kingdom of God—the reign of Yahweh on earth established through Christ. #TheGospels
— Brian Zahnd (@BrianZahnd) December 19, 2017
This is the tweet that I decided I needed to pounce on.
I realize now that I was literally angry at forgiveness.
I was angry because someone else’s view of forgiveness wasn’t as small as my own. I was angry because didn’t interpret the Bible through my lenses. I was angry for all of the wrong reasons.
A lot has changed for me personally since December 20th, 2017, and one of those things is that I’m not as big and bad as the Internet allows me to be, and because I’m not as big and bad as the Internet allows me to be that also I’m done being a jerk about theology.
Grace is simply something you receive, it’s something you give, and I should’ve given more grace. I should’ve been willing to ask questions.
As I get older I’ve found that if we’re willing to ask questions rather than assume answers, then we just might find that we stand on more common ground than what we realize.
Brian, if you read this, I’m really sorry. This may not be a big deal to you, but this has been weighing on me for the last few days. Maybe if I come up to the St. Joseph area we can hang out sometime.